Now, before you write me off as shallow and think this post
is gonna be a whiny one about getting older, read it through to the end.
Part of me wants to say that where I haven’t been doesn’t
matter because I haven’t been there. In reality, the places we don’t go in life
are just as important as the places we do. Staying away from things we don’t
need in our life matters just as much as being surrounded by the things we do.
Where exactly am I going? I can’t really answer that
question. One of my favorite scriptures is Jeremiah 29:11 which says; “For I
know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not
to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future”.
While I don’t know what the future holds in detail, I know
that the plans that God has for me and my family are GOOD! They are plans that
will bring hope and a future to our lives.
For those who know me best, they know that I am a planner. I
have a hard time doing things at the last minute. I also am early almost
everywhere I go. If I am on time, I feel like I’m late. These qualities,
whether good or bad, make patiently waiting difficult sometimes. I am much more
comfortable knowing what’s coming and “being prepared” for what’s to come.
I have found that life in general doesn’t work that way. You
can prepare for a trip, a meeting, a dinner, a birthday party, or a day at the
park. What you can not prepare for is tomorrow. What if your trip, meeting,
dinner, birthday party, or day at the park is happening tomorrow? Your
preparation is for the activity, not for the day. It is for the event, not for
the time. In most cases, whatever you planned for tomorrow, will probably still
happen and maybe just like you planned. Sometimes though, your plans just don’t
work out.
I was intrigued recently with a series of post on Heather’s Dish. She wrote a series on Living Boldly starting on the day she turned
thirty. Thirty-one days of stepping outside of her comfort zone to challenge her
to become a woman boldly on fire for Christ. What I was most intrigued by was
the fact that some of the things on her list were not spiritual things. They
were seemingly small, everyday decisions, but they challenged her heart.
What does this have to do with my future? While you can’t
always make plans for tomorrow, you can be prepared. God has a way of preparing
us for the unknowns of tomorrow. God knows what our future holds even though we
may not.
Looking back on where I’ve been (and where I haven’t been) I
can see some of God’s preparation for me. He has lead me down specific roads,
brought specific people into my life, and challenged me more than I ever wanted
to be by specific things that I’ve had to face in life; all for His glory, and
all so I would be able to face my unplanned tomorrows.
I don’t know what thirty will bring, but God does. That
being said, my goal for this year is to stop trying to plan so much. My goal is
to live life, trusting God, not worrying about tomorrow. God knows, so as
long as I know God, I’m good!!

